When no one is looking.™

How many times when you are out and you wish no one is looking or scrutinizing what you do? Times when you kinda feel like digging your nose, adjust that displaced undergarment that is causing you some minor discomfort? The idea that you can just do something without being conscious of someone watching you. How ironic because I do that too. I like to watch people, wonder what their stories are. You know, the whole, sizing strangers up, second guessing their occupations, how they lead their lives etc.

But there is a thin line doing that and passing judgements. I have learnt how not to make presumptuous opinions of people, or pass judgements on people I do not know. Dunno, maybe because of my line of work and interest. In order to photograph someone well, you have to know their story, and then attempt to tell that story of theirs' via the pictures you take. And that requires some sense of objectivity and it's like starting on a blank canvas to be painted. You cannot afford to pass a judgement on your subject even before you click the camera. A parallel would be like, an accused is innocent until proven guilty.

I think to myself, it is impossible for people to stop watching. It is also impossible for me to stop watching. Everyone looks and everyone is still looking. Then there is a whole other flip side to the coin. What if they are not watching? They might actually be looking - the searching kind of looking. What if they look because they are searching for somebody? Then would you wish that people are looking at you then?

I actually don't know why I had such a neurotic thought about this today. But penning it down gives me a clearer perspective I suppose. In a day I will officially be encountering some kind of change, be it mental, physical, emotional, psychological even. Nonetheless still a change.

Good time to spend it with some close family and friends.